A little time

I actually have a moment to write a bit... this seems very rare (at least for the last couple of days). I am in the process of finishing up with school, and with the schedule we have and three kids, it leaves little me time. The kids and I have had the funk for a couple of days, which makes for long nights of waking to comfort and soothe... so this evening, even though I am exhausted, I am taking a moment to reflect and enjoy a bit of quiet me time.

I enjoy being a mother with pretty much all of my being about 90% of the time. The other 10% is full of things that I don't think any person in there right mind would love- the diapers, the punishing, and well... I suppose there isn't much else.

I'm just wondering why the guy at Wal-mart thinks that they know more about raising my children than I... and why is it I am so frequently reminded I have 3 kids- I mean come on, I know I forget things, misplace things, and often seem as though I am in la-la land, but I am completely sure that I do in fact have 3 children... "Wow, you have your hands full, three little ones." I am often bombarded with help too (not that I should be complaining), but sometimes it makes you feel like you look completely un-put-together... you've seen those people, who you want to help because you know they need the help- am I really one of those people... who would have thought having kids was reason enough for people to talk to you about their lives also?

In the last month, I have had the Pizza lady and the cable guy spill their guts to me- I'm not sure why, or the purpose of all of this (whether it be for me to learn something, or maybe just for them to get it off of their chest) I guess I don't even want to think this one out.

Anyhoooo, Valentine's day is right around the corner... making it easy to have an excuse to be close to your loved ones (I guess I don't really need an excuse)... time to look in the back of your drawers and find those long lost unmentionables... ha- I have got to get out of the habit of thinking it doesn't matter what I'm wearing around the house. I often wonder what my husband thinks sometimes- 3 kids later, and things to do- It's time to take a bit of care on myself-

So that's the weekly goal... wake up, get dressed and look nice, even if I plan on staying in...
Hope everyone reading is in good spirit and health-

What is your value?

There have been days, like today, that I want to give up on some things that I've been working day in and day out on. Days that seem to be filled with wonder and a little anger. Days that are tiring and frustrating. Then you come across a scripture- randomly...

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9 NIV

So I'll keep working on doing good, trying to understand why I still am not seeing results and at the proper time (obviously not my time) I will see some sort of light at the end of the tunnel...

I must go and write another time... Alec has awoke for his evening meal... time to cherish some mommy-baby time.

Tell those that you love you love them when you get the chance, because there will come a day when that chance will be taken.

My First

It's my first attempt at putting down my thought for others- oh how entertained you all may be. I can say that I have a pretty interesting life. Mom of a three year old, two year old, and soon to be 5 month old keeps me busy and a bit insane. Chris, my husband, is a firefighter and just took on a second job, so any time together is exciting since we don't have much these days. I believe that God put us together for a reason. Soul mates (yes I believe in those). He's the man I love from top to bottom and side to side. We've had our bumps and turns on the road we've travelled, but each day I have with him I am grateful for a chance to be his wife. I have a degree in Marine Biology, but never got the chance to pursue a career, but am currently in school to finish up in march- soon to be certified to teach middle grades science. I don't have much family here in panama city, with most of my fam in Ohio- though I have come to love my friends here and am grateful for ending up here. I am always trying to figure out God's will for my life, and am yet to get all the answers- hmmmm....

Tomorrow is my anniversary and I attempted to bake a cake for Chris (along with some other "traditional" gifts) and am usually pretty good at baking... but tonight it seems as though it was all wrong. Ha! I'm laughing now at what ended up on the plate. Oh, it really was a disaster- but made with much love.

Anyhow, I think I do pretty good under pressure, have been given more patience than I knew ever could be given, and sway from day to day on being completely in love with all of my life to knowing I should be looking to always improve (which could possibly be a womanly trait)-

The main dramatic issues in my life now are child based and seem relatively mundane to what I think of as normal issues- but i just really want my children to share and get along- is that really too much to ask?

I think we all have a vision of what we'd like our lives to be and then realize that God has something else in mind for us- once we let go of that perceived perfection, we realize that God's way was better than what we could ever have thought up.

I love my husband, adore my children, and am honored to have friends that care about me and my family.